Feeling *so* frustrated lately...

I've been down in the dumps the past few days (OK, who am I kidding - it's more like the past few weeks/months). Just everything sucks right now and I HATE feeling like this. I feel like as soon as I take 2 steps forward in life, I get pushed back one step.

I DO know there's people worse off than me, and I'm thankful that I'm not as bad off as I can be. I work for a Disability law firm, and I see people every day that have horrible disabilities, no income, living on a couch of a family member, etc. So I have no right to complain, right?

I'm stressed about my kids and their health. Some how, all but one of my kids have ended up with health concerns, and I always worry about them. My 11 year old has ADHD and I struggle EVERY day with it. It's never under control, and I have to deal with him telling me he hates me, he wishes I was never born, and that I'm stupid on a daily basis. My 4 year old daughter was just diagnosed with Asthma, and has been having a hard time breathing the past few weeks. She coughs all the time even after 5 minutes of running around and doesn't' understand why she coughs so much. And let's not forget my 2 1/2 year old son with Sensory Processing Disorder, which brings on a WHOLE other set of issues...... AND on top of all that, I have my own health issues to deal with. I'm 29 but feel like I'm 70. I take 10 pills a day; that's a shitload of pills for one person to take. But if I don't take those pills, I'll be carted of to the loony bin in the matter of a few days, so they're kind of necessary.

My job sucks... I'm underpaid for my qualifications and know that I deserve so much more. BUT, because of the crappy economy, there's no jobs out there right now that will pay what I need. So I have to scrimp and save every week just to be able to pay my bills and make ends meet.

AND, my most recent frustration is my weight! I'm struggling to lose weight and it's freaking hard. The first 2 1/2 weeks, the weight kind of just fell off. Now I'm stuck and haven't lost any weight in like 3 days. I'm tired of seeing the scale read the same thing. *Sigh*

OK.... so those are my frustrations.... There's really NO point to this post, but I figured I'd post it anyway!~